When someone is going through a hard time after a break up, I want to help. I want to hear about everything, hear how they feel, hear their struggles, & then cure in every way possible. The one phrase no one wants to hear is “just be happy & move on.” Like honestly… I’m pretty fucking sure if it were that simple, they would have done that from the very beginning. Whenever you want to say that to someone, please stop and think. Put yourself in their shoes. Imagine you have just lost the best thing you’ve ever had, the thing that made you the happiest. Do you understand now? It’s not that easy. Sometimes all a broken soul needs is just that one person who will truly give a shit.
I think one of the most difficult things to ever go through is to wait for someone; not even knowing if they feel the same way about you. Whether that be an ex that you’ve never lost feelings for or someone who you’ve admired from afar for ages. All that goes through your head is how funny they are, how beautiful they can be, how happy they’ve made you in the past and now. Then you start hating yourself. You keep asking yourself the same questions day after day…. “where did we go wrong?” or simply “what’s wrong with me?” You suddenly think you’re just not good enough. And the sad thing is, you can’t control it. Love is unexplainable and will give you thoughts and feelings you never thought you could ever feel. And although some feelings of love may never change, you will reach a point and say “enough is enough.” You are good enough and sooner or later, someone is going to see that. That someone is going to make you feel wonderful.
I don’t know why I’m so nervous for tomorrow morning. So afraid I’m going to screw everything up :(
It’s amazing to not feel like a prisoner in my own body anymore. To not cry & actually feel like there’s hope. I went through the longest time feeling asthough my heart would take over and maintain like that until the day I died. It scared me. I’m a very emotional person and I always will be. I also don’t fall in love & develope strong feelings for peope easily. But when I do, I fall pretty hard. If I’ve learned anything in the past year or so, it’s to never doubt yourself. Love is a scary thing but it is also a very beautiful process. Not everything is for certain, but not everything will end. You just have to take chances. And no matter if those chances taken are forever lovely or end in a way which breaks your heart completely, always keep your head held high. Things will be hard; they might even bring you down to a place so low that you feel like nothing in the world will ever bring you back up like they did with me. But given time, as much time as you need, everything will be golden. I promise.
Sometimes, you just gotta let the tears fall. And that’s okay.
I cry for no fucking reason whatsoever