When someone is going through a hard time after a break up, I want to help. I want to hear about everything, hear how they feel, hear their struggles, & then cure in every way possible. The one phrase no one wants to hear is “just be happy & move on.” Like honestly… I’m pretty fucking sure if it were that simple, they would have done that from the very beginning. Whenever you want to say that to someone, please stop and think. Put yourself in their shoes. Imagine you have just lost the best thing you’ve ever had, the thing that made you the happiest. Do you understand now? It’s not that easy. Sometimes all a broken soul needs is just that one person who will truly give a shit.
I think one of the most difficult things to ever go through is to wait for someone; not even knowing if they feel the same way about you. Whether that be an ex that you’ve never lost feelings for or someone who you’ve admired from afar for ages. All that goes through your head is how funny they are, how beautiful they can be, how happy they’ve made you in the past and now. Then you start hating yourself. You keep asking yourself the same questions day after day…. “where did we go wrong?” or simply “what’s wrong with me?” You suddenly think you’re just not good enough. And the sad thing is, you can’t control it. Love is unexplainable and will give you thoughts and feelings you never thought you could ever feel. And although some feelings of love may never change, you will reach a point and say “enough is enough.” You are good enough and sooner or later, someone is going to see that. That someone is going to make you feel wonderful.
It’s amazing how that one word can bring so many feelings out from under you. Love can be so beautiful; the most beautiful thing you might ever experience even. The feeling of sweet comfort and warmth in your body. Just thinking about that one person will bring those soft chills up your spine and a golden smile to your face. Everything so peaceful and incredible, knowing that there is someone out there who thinks the world of you, who wants you and only you, who will do anything for you because, well… they love you.
However, love can also be the worst pain you might ever feel. Worse than a tooth being pulled, a snake bite, or even a sharp blade cutting deep in your skin. It hurts. To want someone, crave someone, feel completely lost without them. And there you are, what can you do? Nothing. The best you can do is pray that the pain stops. Feeling hopeless knowing you can’t simply run away from your feelings, but instead must cope with them in a way that will make the tears stop falling.
And just like that. Love is a beautiful, crazy, wonderful, heartbreaking, amazing, horrific, spectacular, unexplainable feeling.
It’s amazing to not feel like a prisoner in my own body anymore. To not cry & actually feel like there’s hope. I went through the longest time feeling asthough my heart would take over and maintain like that until the day I died. It scared me. I’m a very emotional person and I always will be. I also don’t fall in love & develope strong feelings for peope easily. But when I do, I fall pretty hard. If I’ve learned anything in the past year or so, it’s to never doubt yourself. Love is a scary thing but it is also a very beautiful process. Not everything is for certain, but not everything will end. You just have to take chances. And no matter if those chances taken are forever lovely or end in a way which breaks your heart completely, always keep your head held high. Things will be hard; they might even bring you down to a place so low that you feel like nothing in the world will ever bring you back up like they did with me. But given time, as much time as you need, everything will be golden. I promise.
Whatever she turns out to be in the end, she’s really saving me.
Someone who will always be there for you. Someone who will be proud to call you their own. Who will take you out on the town, late nights… pulling you close. Who will treat you with respect. Someone who cares and never wants to see even one tear fall from your eye. Someone who makes sure that everyday, they let you know how much they love you. Someone who drives 50 miles just to bring you chicken noodle soup because you feel a little under the weather. Someone who holds you tight during thunderstorms. Someone who will get their ass beat at Mario and still attack you with kisses. Someone who will give you butterflies just by the sound of their name. Who will put you above the world. Someone who loves you for you and nothing more. Someone who knows exactly what you like, exactly what you crave. Someone who will wake up on a Saturday morning and make fluffy pancakes with you. Someone who tells you all the time how much they want to make you their partner. Someone who can talk like that but at the same time, be your best friend. Someone who will wrap you in their arms and watch the sun set in the sand. Someone who will make you feel incredible even at the worst of times. Someone who will make you feel beautiful. Someone who sees you for more than just a gorgeous face, but also a truly great person. Someone who tells you they will never leave… and actually keep that promise. Someone who loves you. Someone you love. Someone who will make your life complete.
Isn’t that what we all want?
